Company.

So lately I've felt like people only want to be in my company for themselves.

What I mean is, they don't want to hang out with me. They just want company, and they don't care who it is. And so I'm just a stand-in for better company.

A few weeks ago I was uninvited to something because the girl who invited me just wanted someone to go with, and when she found someone else to go with her, she didn't need me anymore.

Now, my best friend, who I've been dying to hang out with, asked me to hang out. But only because she "needs something to do Friday night" because her boyfriend is going to a party she doesn't want to go to.

This, plus the idiotic decision by my theater teacher to put me in a position of power so that everyone in class hates me, really makes me feel disconnected from everyone.

And I really need to connect with someone right now.